It’s been over a month since I’ve visited this little corner of the interwebs We’ve been busy living life, and I’ve had to let a few things take a back seat to other priorities the last month. Here’s a quick run down on what’s been happening lately:
- I’ve been training for a half marathon that I’ll be participating in with my good friend, Sara. Training for a half in my early 30’s, after having 2 kids, is not the same kind of training I was used to in my 20’s. Age and childbirth can really wreck a person’s body… and I’ll leave it at that
- I flew down to Texas with both kids for about a week the end of April. I spent the evenings prior to our visit working on choreography, planning/packing, or training and I had to try really hard to keep sane. No one likes a bitchy Tracy, especially Tracy. Our Texas trip consisted of seeing family and friends, but I was also able to take a mini vacation to Grapeland, TX for Burton’s Chorale Camp without the kids for a few days. It was the first time I left Claire overnight with someone else, and I was a little nervous, but she did fine with my parents. Jude had a blast with Luke’s parents while I was gone, too!
- We drove down Highway 1 and saw the coastline from the comfort of our car. We saw beautiful beaches, green rolling hills, foamy waves and it was good for my soul. Then we stopped at Santa Cruz to experience their Boardwalk, and I laughed at myself for taking my family from one touristy spot to another when such beauty surrounded us on the drive. I’ll work on that one…
- We celebrated Mother’s Day at the Exploratorium before I had to work that evening. Luke had the kids make me homemade cards and I was able to “sleep in” from working the night before. It’s funny how 8:00 is something sacred these days. The actual visit to the Exploratorium was nothing to sing about as Claire was just not feeling well and was extra cranky the 30-45 minutes we spent at the museum. That girl was not afraid to throw herself on the floor in front of hundreds of people and perform a stellar tantrum performance. It was pretty epic! Good reminder that moms do not get days off if they choose to spend it with their offspring on Mother’s Day. Ha! Jude really seemed to like it, though. Epic tantrums and an 8 hour shift was not how I imagined my Mother’s Day to go, but that’s life, right? Oh kids, I DO love you!
- AND… heeeyyoooo, Luke celebrated the big 32 this last Tuesday! I prepared a “biggish” meal and Jude and I made dump cake for dessert. Nothing too exciting, but Luke was happy with his home cooked meal, Dr. Pepper, and cake and ice cream. We both agreed that birthdays feel more special when the food is special. Big meals make me think of Saturdays at the Royals, and that was always a feast of food, family, and fun. I will forever treasure those times. Luke also received a new computer desk chair that in no way fits my aesthetic, but makes him quite happy
And here we are. Middle, almost end, of May! I can’t believe it. Everything else in between those events has been a mix of finding our new normal (we are no longer on “extended vacation” mode), dealing with sick kids, dealing with defiant kids (ummm, Jenny had to talk me off a cliff last night… it wasn’t pretty), making an effort to have FUN with my kids and enjoy them when I’m exhausted with everything else, and just finding some balance. I’d like to blog more consistently, but I’ll be honest. I’m am trying my darnedest to figure out how to stay happy and sane most of the time. Yeah, that takes a lot of energy for me these days. But, family, you have to know that I think of you often. I remember and hear your advice when I go throughout my days, good and bad. I wonder about your lives. I wonder if you’re ok. I miss you and wonder how to marry my love for this new city and my longing for your company. I miss the familiarity and feeling of home I have in you. But, this is the path we’ve chosen. We believe this is the best path for our family right now. So, now I just need to figure out how to have realistic expectations for myself, for my family, and my new life in this city. I’m learning to find some balance, my new balance… hehehe